Sleepless Nights

Minutes feels like hours,

As dark dissolves into the early dawn,
Heat sowlling my body, so turn my pillow again and again..Counting sheeps, happy moments in my life
Everything was passed but nor sleep reach my eyes
Every sound i hear, even my heart beat is gaint noise for me I stare at the electronic clock before it’s buzz,
Still it surprises me, though I know it’s going to.
With a swollen eyes and like as a deafeted deer

With no enegry in body or soul,
Steeped into a another day

Its again taken away!

I lay there with closed eyes, exhuasted and defeated!
And my feelings come back again!
My soul falls into darkness by tears rolling on cheek
I see colorfull rainbow spread so wide so beautiful,
Made me jump so high with joy, reaching the blue sky
A loving hand reaches for me, holding me tight
Now I feel so safe, Nothing bothers me anymore,
Painfull memoreis will not sneak through, Nor
Fear will kill me slow,
For a wink
Ach everything transforms to troubles and sarrow,
Godness turns into evil, Heaven turns into hell,
Now your existence emerges to non-existence
Loving hand of yours is there anymore,
I am trying to run away from the pain that is growing
By holding my love in hands without realzing that is like sand
A strong gust of wind can just shifts that away from my hand
Fear from the past, Fear for the future
It seems impossible to breath, My heart is beating too fast
My body is shivering, Pain spreads through out the body
I open my eyes,
My pluse were shutter in the stroms, Body was burrning,
The pain inside me is more then what i can bare
I realize, I remember how to sleep.

Golden Minutes

I have something, I must reveal
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,
Some minutes die out by holding your hand, some in embrance tight hold and some in endarment
Tears rolled by looking at the eyes I dont know so well, in the fearfull securence.
Still my feelings growing deeper and whatever i try no matter,
No sin, No crime I commit nor i didnt forgot the reality
Love is the only thing I render or I receive,
Right into your hands when i belong
Though in my heart only you seems to be matterd,
The sense may not reach and apprehend,
But the love was two though, and Now I alone.
I know you will never love me,
Although i have to confess it
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,