Throat operation

Yet she entered, I realize time have fallen,
A carless character, caps off the syringe
Inject through my left hand
Needles pulls out and In, but never into the vein
Then to the right hand, while blood still trickles out
At last a big tall saline drip was tagged to the needle.
Doctors stepped in, nurses rushing in and out,
Dumb machines counting my heart beat and blood pressure
As the anesthetic blooms inside my nerves,
I could hear thwacking echo of my heart,
As seconds reduce, the voices around me fainted,
I am in dvla, utter darkness

Suddenly I hear voices calling my name,
With a struggle, I open my eyes,
Couldn’t move any part of my body,
Optically it got paralyzed by morphine
They still sticking lethal injections through my veins
But I didn’t feel anything,
Hours passed, but I see no improvement
I confirmed my existence with my mom’s touch

Almost a day have passed
Big tall saline drip was still tagged,
Yet no energy in my legs
Embracing enough, I couldnt even bring myself to pee,
Papers were scattered on the table with a pen aside,
Oh should not talk, I aprehend myself
I wrote Water on a paper!

As I drain down some drops into my mouth,
I felt burning like fire, twisting in my stomach
I wheezed, hacked with tears in my eyes,
I hated myself, pain was only what i had
Mom was beside, holding my hand
And the waves of hate have diminished
I fall sleep again.