Restless night,
I hold my eyes shut tight and drawn
But I see no phase of sleep nor dream
Concepts, Pages, Chapters, Books
That is what stays tonight so stiff
No rest I get nor my brain calms down
Tried I feel physically and mentally
As dark dissolves into light
My breath gets heavy and heavier
The morning is here for the day awaited
I didnt doze but I am sure I ain’t awake.
With no energy I steped down from bed
In mirrow i see the reflection of fear!
I walk through the doors
By my heart pounds in my mouth
I see anxious students, curious teacher
Minutes gets shorter and shorter
Blood flows through my veins
With constant pressure and pain
Finally I hold the paper in my hand
I read through, but everything is so new
Around me; People write papers after paper,
But I sat there with a blank head!
I try again and again, but I see no use
Anger, frustration and resentment are clear,
Teardrops fall to the paper I hold
I want to throw away the paper and scream
Please feel the struggle that I face
What I face is not a myth or lie
It is real and I stay with it,
The one I have come to hate,
The one that holds my fate.
