I wish

I had a dream; which suppose; not to be a dream
Wished to be blessed by god love beam
There might be millons of statrs gloring above
But i desired for only one dad who love
Who would save me from falling apart
And wipe my tears away from my eyes by heart
Would be there to hold my hands
And make me laugh with stories never end
Who gives the guidance i need
And there; when i need confidence indeed
Teaching the things i have to know
To understand wrong and right as i grow

Passing of strangers

In between intimacies I pass
Often I stuck in a mass
Where No discriminate between man and woman

Rather I been remembered to be a human

Life we have often short and sweet

Time with us offer little smile and greet

As we stands on the lifes road

Staring up above into the dark sky board

Life can seem ungrateful and not so kind

Pull our strings and play with our mind

It is so strange with its twist and turns

As everyone of us at some point learns

We seed a goal in mind; that grew and grew

Try to dig our life treasures with no clue

Focused with directions and purpose

Seeking out new meaning that life propose

But just in knowing that someone cares

Which hold us close in thoughts and prayers¨

Life will be so colorful and beautiful

When strangers becomes friends is so wonderful.

Endless circle

I found myself refugee again in the world of fantasy
Illusions lie in my head rushed like crazy
I tried to hide below the surface of reality
As the clock tics; I dejavued to the actuality
The feelings ran through my vein
Silence around me drove me insane
Endless striving day by day
Soul mine cried; soul mine that pray
Since days Of sadness are thing of my past
As i havnt found true love ever last
Its like a endless fight; I never seem to be win
Memories have been engraved, deep within
Desire is a feeling that emerges my temptation
The fire that burns deep inside led me to frustation

Natures color

Glorious dawn swooped into pit-black
As dark clouds above me hack
Rain drops from the clouds and on to trees
Down to the ground and leaves
Pearl drops lay on grassy bed so green
Washes away the dirt so clean
Bees buzz around the pinky bud
Gather nectar from the flowers bed
Wiggly mud on the road side was so brown
My white shoes turned soiled as I drown
When the wind stopped, cotton clouds entered so white
Which i wanted hug them so tight
Hevanly sky basked so blue
I stood there amaze thats true
The blazing sun smiled through was so yellow
Let found me in the natures harmony so wallow

Coward Soul (echos of my soul)

I lost among the stars in the silent night
Beneath the bright sky and twinkling stars delight
Thinking about my past, and how it didnt last
And my burried sorrows to the vast
My bleeding heart filled with pain
Which droves me insane
The desire to be with you tore me apart
I felt like a knife have been put though my heart
Friendship we created over the days
I dont want that to end with the tears
I dont know how long i can keep this in
Thinking about you, i cant restrain

Wish I could say DON'T LEAVE ME!

Not even single minute gone behin

Leaving you in the mechanical jolt hind,

Darkness surrounded me on the place

I could find abundant my every pace (Steps i took-walk)

I felt inside so empty cold and fear,

Just by knowing the truth of you are not anymore here

Hours gone like minutes with you, but one thing remain

Warmth and comfort you brought in me will never change

Love we shared may have been brief

But you stole me whole like a thief

Now i am flying free with the hopes and dream

By thinking all happiness and joys to beam

Now no shadows haunts from time and space,

I feel like rainbow with colors that endlessly grace,

Every touch of you was the remedy for my past

The impact you left on me will stay to last

I have done mistakes in life,but they are few

But now it should not be a mistake by choosing you

You promised me to stay with me forever

I hope you will stick to it ever

I dont expect anything from You!

Like a thunder in my soul, Aching remains eternity
Thoughts are driven by dream which i can't control
Fright of you remain in my intuition not letting my eyes to wink
Every second I were about to enter the heaven
At the same moment I condemn to hell,
I know I hardly know you, but deep inside I know you all,
What is This I asked myself, But I have no answer!
Whenever I close my eyes, I hear Your voice,
Listen your laughter, I want to say this to you
I dont expect anything from you!
I just wish to be a wall for you
where you can hang your pain,
I just wish to walk with you holding hand
When you feel alone in this world
I dont know what future holds for us,
But i want to grow old with You!

Longing (unspoken emotions)

Thousands of words in once all stab at my heart
I became poet of moment, but didn't know where to start
Cold breeze along with flowers in hustle romance
Splashing their joy with colors and dance
Your smile glistens across the sky
Gives me wings to fly
The wind blow softly on your face
Led the nature to embrace
I cant wait no more
I felt like i am going to explode
On a warm silent night
Sitting beside of you my Mr right
There is nowhere i want to be
In this beautiful world just you and me
If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here
Holding your hand close and tight dear
I Scream all this inside hoping you to hear
You dont even respond despite you are near
Suddenly I realize battle of my past yet to rear
The pain of my broken heart put me into fear
It reminds me of how close yet far apart we are
Though my eyes got blind with a tear

My Paper boat

I let my paper boat float on the stream
Watching it tilting on one then to other brim
Carrying each wish of mine with tender care
My tiny boat sails in the all man world afar
Long dark days, long endless nights
I hope my little boat surrives to the land right
Storm and blizzard out in the puddles
Made my little boat choose the uncertain routes
Efforts of mine keep control, but my heart losses
Scoring the taste of defeat, rather struggling for success
Each break, each ache i lit on my boat made it wet
Failed to be optimistic and unworthy became its fate
Burden of downpour sorrows made it heavy day by day
Finally my tiny boat sinked away

Midnight Walk

Day shed to milder gleam
Me and him sat near to the silent stream
The trembles of the soft echo from the church bell ring
Birds still awake from a long sight sing
Cold wind blown from the aged trees
Flower fragance along with the swelling breeze
Silently swinged my hair
Let resoulte to the place where we were
The words we supposed to speak disapperaed
Only spechless between us apperaed

Under a umberlla

Clouds of mournful grey
Creeped over the sunny day
People rushed to hide under a rock
while along the street we had a walk
We talk about moments have spent
Shared the challenges life has sent
I realize there is a friend to make the long way
what might this life brings next may
This is what a real blessing from above
Makes my life as a colourful rainbow
Sharing things from depths of my soul
With a friend makes my life complete and whole
Under an umberlla with me
Among the raindrops that be

Apperiating life

Life is a work of art

Everyone has born to be something special and set apart

Life is precious no matter you are poor or rich

That some is more worth than other? there is no such

It seems all your sufferings like a fate, indeed!

Though you do your best: but scare to get succeed

Difficulties are opportunities for better things

If you strive to become the one: will give you the wings

Departure platform of Love

I love, yet I force my soul to pique (hate)
I pray, yet I stop feeling sad and blue
I wish; yet i dare not to love you
I feel, yet nor your rainbow come similing tru
I seem, yet I am stark to mute and sue
I dream, Yet I am able to go through
I do, yet I hatred and thats true

Facade Identity

Smile on face and joy filled eyes
Like a new morn sun rise
Draw a veil over our emotions
And we remain to the worlds expectations
Wear a mask; a covering of pain
And compete; to get a hold in lifes train
Work hard and try to look cool
Make other to feel that they are fool
Next person beside; you go to hurt
Avoid people below like a dirt
Be gracious outside; No matter you cry within
But in a while, the mask we wears get thin
Truth of us will begin to show
False pride, ego will blow
Identity is not only looks of you
Its how we act think what we find true
So lets remove our mask, and let ourself go
And let the outside world get to know

Mask

I love to walk in the rain, Cause No one can feel my pain
Nor see me cry, as my tears will fall along with drops and die
I wear my mask of smile, and make people happy for a while

Until we grow grey and old

Yet I know, the person walk with me along side
In the commitment I make for lifes tide (direction)
Two lives will be joined together
As a husband and wife and one for each other
To be my behalf; I dont expect much
Other than; In the times of obstacles make me comfort with a touch
For better or for worse I bare
Be there to wipe my tears and trace away the fears
I dont need riches,wealth or gold
Only a tender caring of parent, where i can grow old
I need love not alters in days and weeks
The happiest relationship in order to keep
Be a teacher, listner, lover and critic
And strength my willing power in the days of hectic
I and thee shall be best friends
And might we live in the paradise to very end

Never Going To END

Rememberence of times, I stay awake in night,
Your arrival in my life, seems nowhere in sight,
Once i wish we''d grow older together
But the dream i had flew away like a silent feather
Touch and thoughts of you grown strong
Even with a strife, i cant prove it wrong
Moments together, pleasently spent,
Of kisses deep and heavenly sent
Our souls combine, yet still,
Tears in my longing eyes fill,

My love for you wasnt a mistake of fragile youth
Feelings for you I have is endure truth
All the time, I try to move on and I hope
When the people told me with that I shouldnt cope
With every day that passes the reality becomes clear
Although you are my heart desire
I wish I could make you feel
The pain i have inside is real
Well this is all I can say
Now, it is up to your way

Until the last minute

Days in and out

Caught up with the work drought,

Medcines, patients, pushed me to limit

Frustration and mental tiredness is what put up into a fight

But when someone weak and pale give me a smile

Hold my hands and say, "Thank you, You are my angle"

I felt warmth in my heart growing for a while

For a minute all my abhorrence, annoyance disappear

Only my core values as a human appear

I speak about compassion and love, and feel sad

But the touch of their thought me human dignity I had

I saw their despair tearing them apart inside

And i felt so helpless as I watch at their side

I beg god help me to bring comfort, where there is pain

But there is no use, all my adjure went to drain

Tried to give hope, as my feelings I hide

Its too late, their soul had left and they are dead

Every time when somone I know depart

They leave behind an ache in my heart

We are often in life blind, mien and loud

Though I realize in that moment , life is not to be too proud

People

Me is you, you are me and we are one (humans).. then why promise ourself a paradise on earth never produce anything but a hell.” In the name of religion, status, etinicity and gender why alive people are getting killed? God has given us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference between good and bad

Throat operation

Yet she entered, I realize time have fallen,
A carless character, caps off the syringe
Inject through my left hand
Needles pulls out and In, but never into the vein
Then to the right hand, while blood still trickles out
At last a big tall saline drip was tagged to the needle.
Doctors stepped in, nurses rushing in and out,
Dumb machines counting my heart beat and blood pressure
As the anesthetic blooms inside my nerves,
I could hear thwacking echo of my heart,
As seconds reduce, the voices around me fainted,
I am in dvla, utter darkness

Suddenly I hear voices calling my name,
With a struggle, I open my eyes,
Couldn’t move any part of my body,
Optically it got paralyzed by morphine
They still sticking lethal injections through my veins
But I didn’t feel anything,
Hours passed, but I see no improvement
I confirmed my existence with my mom’s touch

Almost a day have passed
Big tall saline drip was still tagged,
Yet no energy in my legs
Embracing enough, I couldnt even bring myself to pee,
Papers were scattered on the table with a pen aside,
Oh should not talk, I aprehend myself
I wrote Water on a paper!

As I drain down some drops into my mouth,
I felt burning like fire, twisting in my stomach
I wheezed, hacked with tears in my eyes,
I hated myself, pain was only what i had
Mom was beside, holding my hand
And the waves of hate have diminished
I fall sleep again.

Spring is here

Blissfull song nudge me up from slumber
Outside the window I see livefull timber
The grey began to fade
Dew drops waken with fine sunshine shade
All the colors in the sky turned into blue
Life of hormony light arise with morning hue
The spring new buds of green,
Magic happend overnight, seems like a dream
Hair of mine soft-lifted by the winnowing wind
March wind flowing away the winter is what I find
A flower fragance declare that spring is here
Nearby the bees fly and buzz for the necter

Desire

Much want to be taken, yet given,
From begnning to end desire is what found,
Its a deep mystery, but we have always it in us around,
As we grow, days remain uncertainty,
In that journey, some may miss the lifes beauty,
Life for anyone never prefect
It is what we do, that we regret
World of everyone life, bloody full of blame,
East, west, North, south, drown in a waste of shame

Warmest compassion, is what more people care
The greatest gift you can give and never can more
With a glad and grateful heart;
Spread around you the comfort
Then Earth will become a heavenly place
Though we will find happiness in every face

Becuase
Everyone dies, but not everyone lives
Today or tomorrow
Our soul end to the silence
And we may turn into white ashes

The way I feel for you!

Cold winds which never freeze,
Dew drops thrill the grass with graze
Moon enter the sky so splendour
Along the clouds,starts twinkle entire tender
Like a tremor, my veins fill with explosions
I stand today articulate my emoitions
With every passing day
Your thoughts have taken me away
That threathened my existence
Filled only with your essence
You have taken away my fears
The words I thought never can express
Magic reached very depth of soul, thats true
I found my heart needing you,
Everything feels today so right,
By hoping, that i will hold you in my arms tonight
Lets walk down next step together
I promise that i will leave you never