I wanna be LOVED

I stand alone in the cold midnight rain
Pain saturate in the blood run throuh my vein
Emotions sprint through my mind as a spinning weel,
It cannot be explained, but i know there is no way to heal,
Eternal feelings abudanced comes straight from heart
I am so scared, as i am slowlly falling apart
Everyday that goes by, feels longer than before
By knowing the fact that it cant be the same anymore
Once you came into my life, and let it for a while glow
As days passed you caused only pain, by your promises blow
I thought our affiliation remains forever
But it turned out to be happened never
You let my heart cry again and again
For a Desire You thought to gain
Now I am teriffied to put a smile on my face
As i may get disapperaed without a trace
Remembrance of my past lead feelings twisted inside
Now i am confused to choose the lifes right side
I want my trains of thoughts about you fade away,
And find a new eposide of life to live on my way,
So dream with me these empty months of sorrow,
Held a flame in my soul to find a blissfull tomorrow
Yet I wish deep inside a beautiful flower to bloom
Light my life now in the dark, in the gloom.

To My Mom

Old enough to have a life on hold
But You will be my potter, my mold,
With adumbrating pain in your heart
Sheilding us from your wounds apart
You were working finger to bone
To give us worldst saftest home
You protected us under your wings
Dawn to dusk from the evil eye rinse
You were a woman of devoition
A mother with love as ocean
Your Caring wipe my tears
Will give me faith witout fears
When the hard times are bad
And my days drench with sad
You helped me get on track
Spirit you gave bring me back
You will be my idol of hope
Without giving up I will cope
With your guidance i will strive
For the life and to survive
I owe my life to you to repay
For the love you showed all the way
I promise I will make you proud
By the world saying it loud
I wish hunderd more years
In this world to be with you here

This is MY LIFE

I often wonder why, why
People crawl into my life and let my thoughts die
It is me who patiently climbed to success
But you were not happy for my sake I guess
Once I find my life on the dark side to cease
Knowing that you vanish without a trace
Life I have been trough has been tough
Moments and incidents I find enough
I am not only made up of flesh and bone
Words you put across lead my heart to torn
Now you are here again to condemn
On reasons you find in my life random
I realize that I havent yet live a life to this point
So dont make life over and over again disappoint
I want my life and days for my own
So please leave me and my life alone.