Longing (unspoken emotions)

Thousands of words in once all stab at my heart
I became poet of moment, but didn't know where to start
Cold breeze along with flowers in hustle romance
Splashing their joy with colors and dance
Your smile glistens across the sky
Gives me wings to fly
The wind blow softly on your face
Led the nature to embrace
I cant wait no more
I felt like i am going to explode
On a warm silent night
Sitting beside of you my Mr right
There is nowhere i want to be
In this beautiful world just you and me
If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here
Holding your hand close and tight dear
I Scream all this inside hoping you to hear
You dont even respond despite you are near
Suddenly I realize battle of my past yet to rear
The pain of my broken heart put me into fear
It reminds me of how close yet far apart we are
Though my eyes got blind with a tear

My Paper boat

I let my paper boat float on the stream
Watching it tilting on one then to other brim
Carrying each wish of mine with tender care
My tiny boat sails in the all man world afar
Long dark days, long endless nights
I hope my little boat surrives to the land right
Storm and blizzard out in the puddles
Made my little boat choose the uncertain routes
Efforts of mine keep control, but my heart losses
Scoring the taste of defeat, rather struggling for success
Each break, each ache i lit on my boat made it wet
Failed to be optimistic and unworthy became its fate
Burden of downpour sorrows made it heavy day by day
Finally my tiny boat sinked away

Midnight Walk

Day shed to milder gleam
Me and him sat near to the silent stream
The trembles of the soft echo from the church bell ring
Birds still awake from a long sight sing
Cold wind blown from the aged trees
Flower fragance along with the swelling breeze
Silently swinged my hair
Let resoulte to the place where we were
The words we supposed to speak disapperaed
Only spechless between us apperaed

Under a umberlla

Clouds of mournful grey
Creeped over the sunny day
People rushed to hide under a rock
while along the street we had a walk
We talk about moments have spent
Shared the challenges life has sent
I realize there is a friend to make the long way
what might this life brings next may
This is what a real blessing from above
Makes my life as a colourful rainbow
Sharing things from depths of my soul
With a friend makes my life complete and whole
Under an umberlla with me
Among the raindrops that be

Apperiating life

Life is a work of art

Everyone has born to be something special and set apart

Life is precious no matter you are poor or rich

That some is more worth than other? there is no such

It seems all your sufferings like a fate, indeed!

Though you do your best: but scare to get succeed

Difficulties are opportunities for better things

If you strive to become the one: will give you the wings

Departure platform of Love

I love, yet I force my soul to pique (hate)
I pray, yet I stop feeling sad and blue
I wish; yet i dare not to love you
I feel, yet nor your rainbow come similing tru
I seem, yet I am stark to mute and sue
I dream, Yet I am able to go through
I do, yet I hatred and thats true

Facade Identity

Smile on face and joy filled eyes
Like a new morn sun rise
Draw a veil over our emotions
And we remain to the worlds expectations
Wear a mask; a covering of pain
And compete; to get a hold in lifes train
Work hard and try to look cool
Make other to feel that they are fool
Next person beside; you go to hurt
Avoid people below like a dirt
Be gracious outside; No matter you cry within
But in a while, the mask we wears get thin
Truth of us will begin to show
False pride, ego will blow
Identity is not only looks of you
Its how we act think what we find true
So lets remove our mask, and let ourself go
And let the outside world get to know

Mask

I love to walk in the rain, Cause No one can feel my pain
Nor see me cry, as my tears will fall along with drops and die
I wear my mask of smile, and make people happy for a while

Until we grow grey and old

Yet I know, the person walk with me along side
In the commitment I make for lifes tide (direction)
Two lives will be joined together
As a husband and wife and one for each other
To be my behalf; I dont expect much
Other than; In the times of obstacles make me comfort with a touch
For better or for worse I bare
Be there to wipe my tears and trace away the fears
I dont need riches,wealth or gold
Only a tender caring of parent, where i can grow old
I need love not alters in days and weeks
The happiest relationship in order to keep
Be a teacher, listner, lover and critic
And strength my willing power in the days of hectic
I and thee shall be best friends
And might we live in the paradise to very end

Never Going To END

Rememberence of times, I stay awake in night,
Your arrival in my life, seems nowhere in sight,
Once i wish we''d grow older together
But the dream i had flew away like a silent feather
Touch and thoughts of you grown strong
Even with a strife, i cant prove it wrong
Moments together, pleasently spent,
Of kisses deep and heavenly sent
Our souls combine, yet still,
Tears in my longing eyes fill,

My love for you wasnt a mistake of fragile youth
Feelings for you I have is endure truth
All the time, I try to move on and I hope
When the people told me with that I shouldnt cope
With every day that passes the reality becomes clear
Although you are my heart desire
I wish I could make you feel
The pain i have inside is real
Well this is all I can say
Now, it is up to your way

Until the last minute

Days in and out

Caught up with the work drought,

Medcines, patients, pushed me to limit

Frustration and mental tiredness is what put up into a fight

But when someone weak and pale give me a smile

Hold my hands and say, "Thank you, You are my angle"

I felt warmth in my heart growing for a while

For a minute all my abhorrence, annoyance disappear

Only my core values as a human appear

I speak about compassion and love, and feel sad

But the touch of their thought me human dignity I had

I saw their despair tearing them apart inside

And i felt so helpless as I watch at their side

I beg god help me to bring comfort, where there is pain

But there is no use, all my adjure went to drain

Tried to give hope, as my feelings I hide

Its too late, their soul had left and they are dead

Every time when somone I know depart

They leave behind an ache in my heart

We are often in life blind, mien and loud

Though I realize in that moment , life is not to be too proud

People

Me is you, you are me and we are one (humans).. then why promise ourself a paradise on earth never produce anything but a hell.” In the name of religion, status, etinicity and gender why alive people are getting killed? God has given us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference between good and bad

Throat operation

Yet she entered, I realize time have fallen,
A carless character, caps off the syringe
Inject through my left hand
Needles pulls out and In, but never into the vein
Then to the right hand, while blood still trickles out
At last a big tall saline drip was tagged to the needle.
Doctors stepped in, nurses rushing in and out,
Dumb machines counting my heart beat and blood pressure
As the anesthetic blooms inside my nerves,
I could hear thwacking echo of my heart,
As seconds reduce, the voices around me fainted,
I am in dvla, utter darkness

Suddenly I hear voices calling my name,
With a struggle, I open my eyes,
Couldn’t move any part of my body,
Optically it got paralyzed by morphine
They still sticking lethal injections through my veins
But I didn’t feel anything,
Hours passed, but I see no improvement
I confirmed my existence with my mom’s touch

Almost a day have passed
Big tall saline drip was still tagged,
Yet no energy in my legs
Embracing enough, I couldnt even bring myself to pee,
Papers were scattered on the table with a pen aside,
Oh should not talk, I aprehend myself
I wrote Water on a paper!

As I drain down some drops into my mouth,
I felt burning like fire, twisting in my stomach
I wheezed, hacked with tears in my eyes,
I hated myself, pain was only what i had
Mom was beside, holding my hand
And the waves of hate have diminished
I fall sleep again.

Spring is here

Blissfull song nudge me up from slumber
Outside the window I see livefull timber
The grey began to fade
Dew drops waken with fine sunshine shade
All the colors in the sky turned into blue
Life of hormony light arise with morning hue
The spring new buds of green,
Magic happend overnight, seems like a dream
Hair of mine soft-lifted by the winnowing wind
March wind flowing away the winter is what I find
A flower fragance declare that spring is here
Nearby the bees fly and buzz for the necter

Desire

Much want to be taken, yet given,
From begnning to end desire is what found,
Its a deep mystery, but we have always it in us around,
As we grow, days remain uncertainty,
In that journey, some may miss the lifes beauty,
Life for anyone never prefect
It is what we do, that we regret
World of everyone life, bloody full of blame,
East, west, North, south, drown in a waste of shame

Warmest compassion, is what more people care
The greatest gift you can give and never can more
With a glad and grateful heart;
Spread around you the comfort
Then Earth will become a heavenly place
Though we will find happiness in every face

Becuase
Everyone dies, but not everyone lives
Today or tomorrow
Our soul end to the silence
And we may turn into white ashes

The way I feel for you!

Cold winds which never freeze,
Dew drops thrill the grass with graze
Moon enter the sky so splendour
Along the clouds,starts twinkle entire tender
Like a tremor, my veins fill with explosions
I stand today articulate my emoitions
With every passing day
Your thoughts have taken me away
That threathened my existence
Filled only with your essence
You have taken away my fears
The words I thought never can express
Magic reached very depth of soul, thats true
I found my heart needing you,
Everything feels today so right,
By hoping, that i will hold you in my arms tonight
Lets walk down next step together
I promise that i will leave you never

For you

As you walk through the path of life, Different kinds of people will thrive,
Listen to your heart, Dont let anyone change you apart
If are kind and true, the best will come to you
Forget the things made you sad, but remember the things made your glad
You will only make this world better, if your make yourself happier
Tomorrow will become yesterday, choices make your life relay
Life has to go on, no matter what and who left you and gone,
I am here for the good times to share, and in bad times to care,
So sparkle with joy and colorful glow, and make your day blow

To My Friends

As summer and winter accompanies with grin
Time should hold us wholly in twain
We come across people every day in our life
But only some stays with you through the strife
Yet we spend no time to contemplate our youth
Along the years we will get to know the truth
We blast through the things knocks at our heart
And forget anything happened on the spot
But times recalls when we grow old
All the things done will remain for us as gold
Life is too short,as it can end before you start
As it is a mystery beyond our thought
So widden your curves and let us together smile
As happiness stays only for a while
Come on, let take everyday towards the sucess key
Then your aim will be clear, that you will see
Before you reach your goal, time taken may be long
At the end, you will find things rarely go wrong
Deep in us, sits fast our fate,
So lets mould it, before it becomes too late
Lets us not forget the time and dreams we share
Forever dear friends, we should eachother care
Joy is what fills my heart now and i will pray
For the frienship is something which we will tarry

Mirror of My soul

City hidden under the dark cold night
At the roadcorner under the street light
I saw the snowflackes gather so bright
Beautiful as crystals and sparkle my sight
I Jump so high to catch them so tight
As they land on my hand, they were no more unite
But from the far, for my eyes flakes were so white
Like my life, they appear gleam from the far it might
Day and dusk I struggle, to make my life so right
But mystery burried in me leads myself to fright
As i wake up everyday, I make my mind to be wright
But deep inside of me, I still have that fight

I know the battle inside me will give no gain
But i couldnt cease my memories to come again
I left the time to heal my wounds and pain
O'er days and months passed by to the vain
I want to forget the warmth of you with strian
But i am unable to vanish the thought from my brain
I want to dissolve the nonsense in drain
But I see my feelings towards you never refrain
Once you planted your love in me as a grain
Now it have become a tree and stand as main
Thinking of past,the time went like train
A hour have gone and I realize I was under the rain

Exam (Nigthmare)

Restless night,
I hold my eyes shut tight and drawn
But I see no phase of sleep nor dream
Concepts, Pages, Chapters, Books
That is what stays tonight so stiff
No rest I get nor my brain calms down
Tried I feel physically and mentally

As dark dissolves into light
My breath gets heavy and heavier
The morning is here for the day awaited
I didnt doze but I am sure I ain’t awake.
With no energy I steped down from bed
In mirrow i see the reflection of fear!

I walk through the doors
By my heart pounds in my mouth
I see anxious students, curious teacher
Minutes gets shorter and shorter
Blood flows through my veins
With constant pressure and pain

Finally I hold the paper in my hand
I read through, but everything is so new
Around me; People write papers after paper,
But I sat there with a blank head!
I try again and again, but I see no use
Anger, frustration and resentment are clear,
Teardrops fall to the paper I hold

I want to throw away the paper and scream
Please feel the struggle that I face
What I face is not a myth or lie
It is real and I stay with it,
The one I have come to hate,
The one that holds my fate.