Until we grow grey and old

Yet I know, the person walk with me along side
In the commitment I make for lifes tide (direction)
Two lives will be joined together
As a husband and wife and one for each other
To be my behalf; I dont expect much
Other than; In the times of obstacles make me comfort with a touch
For better or for worse I bare
Be there to wipe my tears and trace away the fears
I dont need riches,wealth or gold
Only a tender caring of parent, where i can grow old
I need love not alters in days and weeks
The happiest relationship in order to keep
Be a teacher, listner, lover and critic
And strength my willing power in the days of hectic
I and thee shall be best friends
And might we live in the paradise to very end

Never Going To END

Rememberence of times, I stay awake in night,
Your arrival in my life, seems nowhere in sight,
Once i wish we''d grow older together
But the dream i had flew away like a silent feather
Touch and thoughts of you grown strong
Even with a strife, i cant prove it wrong
Moments together, pleasently spent,
Of kisses deep and heavenly sent
Our souls combine, yet still,
Tears in my longing eyes fill,

My love for you wasnt a mistake of fragile youth
Feelings for you I have is endure truth
All the time, I try to move on and I hope
When the people told me with that I shouldnt cope
With every day that passes the reality becomes clear
Although you are my heart desire
I wish I could make you feel
The pain i have inside is real
Well this is all I can say
Now, it is up to your way

Until the last minute

Days in and out

Caught up with the work drought,

Medcines, patients, pushed me to limit

Frustration and mental tiredness is what put up into a fight

But when someone weak and pale give me a smile

Hold my hands and say, "Thank you, You are my angle"

I felt warmth in my heart growing for a while

For a minute all my abhorrence, annoyance disappear

Only my core values as a human appear

I speak about compassion and love, and feel sad

But the touch of their thought me human dignity I had

I saw their despair tearing them apart inside

And i felt so helpless as I watch at their side

I beg god help me to bring comfort, where there is pain

But there is no use, all my adjure went to drain

Tried to give hope, as my feelings I hide

Its too late, their soul had left and they are dead

Every time when somone I know depart

They leave behind an ache in my heart

We are often in life blind, mien and loud

Though I realize in that moment , life is not to be too proud

People

Me is you, you are me and we are one (humans).. then why promise ourself a paradise on earth never produce anything but a hell.” In the name of religion, status, etinicity and gender why alive people are getting killed? God has given us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference between good and bad

Throat operation

Yet she entered, I realize time have fallen,
A carless character, caps off the syringe
Inject through my left hand
Needles pulls out and In, but never into the vein
Then to the right hand, while blood still trickles out
At last a big tall saline drip was tagged to the needle.
Doctors stepped in, nurses rushing in and out,
Dumb machines counting my heart beat and blood pressure
As the anesthetic blooms inside my nerves,
I could hear thwacking echo of my heart,
As seconds reduce, the voices around me fainted,
I am in dvla, utter darkness

Suddenly I hear voices calling my name,
With a struggle, I open my eyes,
Couldn’t move any part of my body,
Optically it got paralyzed by morphine
They still sticking lethal injections through my veins
But I didn’t feel anything,
Hours passed, but I see no improvement
I confirmed my existence with my mom’s touch

Almost a day have passed
Big tall saline drip was still tagged,
Yet no energy in my legs
Embracing enough, I couldnt even bring myself to pee,
Papers were scattered on the table with a pen aside,
Oh should not talk, I aprehend myself
I wrote Water on a paper!

As I drain down some drops into my mouth,
I felt burning like fire, twisting in my stomach
I wheezed, hacked with tears in my eyes,
I hated myself, pain was only what i had
Mom was beside, holding my hand
And the waves of hate have diminished
I fall sleep again.

Spring is here

Blissfull song nudge me up from slumber
Outside the window I see livefull timber
The grey began to fade
Dew drops waken with fine sunshine shade
All the colors in the sky turned into blue
Life of hormony light arise with morning hue
The spring new buds of green,
Magic happend overnight, seems like a dream
Hair of mine soft-lifted by the winnowing wind
March wind flowing away the winter is what I find
A flower fragance declare that spring is here
Nearby the bees fly and buzz for the necter

Desire

Much want to be taken, yet given,
From begnning to end desire is what found,
Its a deep mystery, but we have always it in us around,
As we grow, days remain uncertainty,
In that journey, some may miss the lifes beauty,
Life for anyone never prefect
It is what we do, that we regret
World of everyone life, bloody full of blame,
East, west, North, south, drown in a waste of shame

Warmest compassion, is what more people care
The greatest gift you can give and never can more
With a glad and grateful heart;
Spread around you the comfort
Then Earth will become a heavenly place
Though we will find happiness in every face

Becuase
Everyone dies, but not everyone lives
Today or tomorrow
Our soul end to the silence
And we may turn into white ashes

The way I feel for you!

Cold winds which never freeze,
Dew drops thrill the grass with graze
Moon enter the sky so splendour
Along the clouds,starts twinkle entire tender
Like a tremor, my veins fill with explosions
I stand today articulate my emoitions
With every passing day
Your thoughts have taken me away
That threathened my existence
Filled only with your essence
You have taken away my fears
The words I thought never can express
Magic reached very depth of soul, thats true
I found my heart needing you,
Everything feels today so right,
By hoping, that i will hold you in my arms tonight
Lets walk down next step together
I promise that i will leave you never

For you

As you walk through the path of life, Different kinds of people will thrive,
Listen to your heart, Dont let anyone change you apart
If are kind and true, the best will come to you
Forget the things made you sad, but remember the things made your glad
You will only make this world better, if your make yourself happier
Tomorrow will become yesterday, choices make your life relay
Life has to go on, no matter what and who left you and gone,
I am here for the good times to share, and in bad times to care,
So sparkle with joy and colorful glow, and make your day blow

To My Friends

As summer and winter accompanies with grin
Time should hold us wholly in twain
We come across people every day in our life
But only some stays with you through the strife
Yet we spend no time to contemplate our youth
Along the years we will get to know the truth
We blast through the things knocks at our heart
And forget anything happened on the spot
But times recalls when we grow old
All the things done will remain for us as gold
Life is too short,as it can end before you start
As it is a mystery beyond our thought
So widden your curves and let us together smile
As happiness stays only for a while
Come on, let take everyday towards the sucess key
Then your aim will be clear, that you will see
Before you reach your goal, time taken may be long
At the end, you will find things rarely go wrong
Deep in us, sits fast our fate,
So lets mould it, before it becomes too late
Lets us not forget the time and dreams we share
Forever dear friends, we should eachother care
Joy is what fills my heart now and i will pray
For the frienship is something which we will tarry

Mirror of My soul

City hidden under the dark cold night
At the roadcorner under the street light
I saw the snowflackes gather so bright
Beautiful as crystals and sparkle my sight
I Jump so high to catch them so tight
As they land on my hand, they were no more unite
But from the far, for my eyes flakes were so white
Like my life, they appear gleam from the far it might
Day and dusk I struggle, to make my life so right
But mystery burried in me leads myself to fright
As i wake up everyday, I make my mind to be wright
But deep inside of me, I still have that fight

I know the battle inside me will give no gain
But i couldnt cease my memories to come again
I left the time to heal my wounds and pain
O'er days and months passed by to the vain
I want to forget the warmth of you with strian
But i am unable to vanish the thought from my brain
I want to dissolve the nonsense in drain
But I see my feelings towards you never refrain
Once you planted your love in me as a grain
Now it have become a tree and stand as main
Thinking of past,the time went like train
A hour have gone and I realize I was under the rain

Exam (Nigthmare)

Restless night,
I hold my eyes shut tight and drawn
But I see no phase of sleep nor dream
Concepts, Pages, Chapters, Books
That is what stays tonight so stiff
No rest I get nor my brain calms down
Tried I feel physically and mentally

As dark dissolves into light
My breath gets heavy and heavier
The morning is here for the day awaited
I didnt doze but I am sure I ain’t awake.
With no energy I steped down from bed
In mirrow i see the reflection of fear!

I walk through the doors
By my heart pounds in my mouth
I see anxious students, curious teacher
Minutes gets shorter and shorter
Blood flows through my veins
With constant pressure and pain

Finally I hold the paper in my hand
I read through, but everything is so new
Around me; People write papers after paper,
But I sat there with a blank head!
I try again and again, but I see no use
Anger, frustration and resentment are clear,
Teardrops fall to the paper I hold

I want to throw away the paper and scream
Please feel the struggle that I face
What I face is not a myth or lie
It is real and I stay with it,
The one I have come to hate,
The one that holds my fate.

Skania (Countryside)

Morn wakes up with song of harmony
Behind the terrace side of mountains
Golden hue rise with a smile of light
Droplets of summer morning dew
Covers the green grass as sparkle
Brings the dry earth to renew,
Bright blue sky reign in glory
Shedding leaves dancing in breeze
By rose petals blow on swining
Waves of sea reach the shore
Across the damp sand and shells
Birds and butterfly fly through window
Flutter and whisle the nature melody
Sweetly and gently in my ears
Just beyond the sun set
The night enters the day so calm
In the light of the moon
Stars twinkle next to it so bright
Day close its eyes in the wonderland

Hope

The whole world is like a dream,
Nothing here would be at the end mine,
As seasons changes and it will show,
Days dissappears in my life,but i still try it glow
I throw everyday a peice of rope
To give myself a chance of hope
A ray of faith perhaps may left
By making a new start, i have to heft,
Time have been taken, may be long
But now I have to make a choice along
Now the path to my aim is clear
Hope only for the keys to the sucess appear.

Life

Life is a long road, but you have to travel that all way,
If you dont, you will be left behind one day
Chocies you made might turned to darken dream
But you never know, Light might into your tomorrow beam,
Life is not easy to anyone for the most,
But its in your hands, if you take every step with a toast,
Paths of life can be long or short, windy or steep
But experience you gain at the end will be heap,

Sleepless Nights

Minutes feels like hours,

As dark dissolves into the early dawn,
Heat sowlling my body, so turn my pillow again and again..Counting sheeps, happy moments in my life
Everything was passed but nor sleep reach my eyes
Every sound i hear, even my heart beat is gaint noise for me I stare at the electronic clock before it’s buzz,
Still it surprises me, though I know it’s going to.
With a swollen eyes and like as a deafeted deer

With no enegry in body or soul,
Steeped into a another day

Its again taken away!

I lay there with closed eyes, exhuasted and defeated!
And my feelings come back again!
My soul falls into darkness by tears rolling on cheek
I see colorfull rainbow spread so wide so beautiful,
Made me jump so high with joy, reaching the blue sky
A loving hand reaches for me, holding me tight
Now I feel so safe, Nothing bothers me anymore,
Painfull memoreis will not sneak through, Nor
Fear will kill me slow,
For a wink
Ach everything transforms to troubles and sarrow,
Godness turns into evil, Heaven turns into hell,
Now your existence emerges to non-existence
Loving hand of yours is there anymore,
I am trying to run away from the pain that is growing
By holding my love in hands without realzing that is like sand
A strong gust of wind can just shifts that away from my hand
Fear from the past, Fear for the future
It seems impossible to breath, My heart is beating too fast
My body is shivering, Pain spreads through out the body
I open my eyes,
My pluse were shutter in the stroms, Body was burrning,
The pain inside me is more then what i can bare
I realize, I remember how to sleep.

Golden Minutes

I have something, I must reveal
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,
Some minutes die out by holding your hand, some in embrance tight hold and some in endarment
Tears rolled by looking at the eyes I dont know so well, in the fearfull securence.
Still my feelings growing deeper and whatever i try no matter,
No sin, No crime I commit nor i didnt forgot the reality
Love is the only thing I render or I receive,
Right into your hands when i belong
Though in my heart only you seems to be matterd,
The sense may not reach and apprehend,
But the love was two though, and Now I alone.
I know you will never love me,
Although i have to confess it
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,

Never or Forever ?

Time will run out soon, I know atlast i will be left as loon,
But i am sure that you will get to know, No matter where ever you go
It might takes for you forever to see, what i have for you in me
I know that my love is devine, even thought you might not willing to be mine,

Because right now

You are the first thought i have when dawn rises
You are the last thought i have when i close my eyes
I know you will fade away, but i cant see my love towards you decay,

I can only say

I love you and i always will, even you dont love me back still,
I will near to you around, when trobules in your life let you down,

I wish i could say

Take me in you arms, dont ever leave me to the relam,

Infinite Pain

Still trapped, as my heart so caught
I want to give up, but deep inside me is your tought
So many feelings rushing around inside me
Your percious silence, I love most thee
The love to the depth you showed made me so wee
No matter how defeated my soul may feel,
I cant end this, and I see no way to heal,