Sleepless Nights

Minutes feels like hours,

As dark dissolves into the early dawn,
Heat sowlling my body, so turn my pillow again and again..Counting sheeps, happy moments in my life
Everything was passed but nor sleep reach my eyes
Every sound i hear, even my heart beat is gaint noise for me I stare at the electronic clock before it’s buzz,
Still it surprises me, though I know it’s going to.
With a swollen eyes and like as a deafeted deer

With no enegry in body or soul,
Steeped into a another day

Its again taken away!

I lay there with closed eyes, exhuasted and defeated!
And my feelings come back again!
My soul falls into darkness by tears rolling on cheek
I see colorfull rainbow spread so wide so beautiful,
Made me jump so high with joy, reaching the blue sky
A loving hand reaches for me, holding me tight
Now I feel so safe, Nothing bothers me anymore,
Painfull memoreis will not sneak through, Nor
Fear will kill me slow,
For a wink
Ach everything transforms to troubles and sarrow,
Godness turns into evil, Heaven turns into hell,
Now your existence emerges to non-existence
Loving hand of yours is there anymore,
I am trying to run away from the pain that is growing
By holding my love in hands without realzing that is like sand
A strong gust of wind can just shifts that away from my hand
Fear from the past, Fear for the future
It seems impossible to breath, My heart is beating too fast
My body is shivering, Pain spreads through out the body
I open my eyes,
My pluse were shutter in the stroms, Body was burrning,
The pain inside me is more then what i can bare
I realize, I remember how to sleep.

Golden Minutes

I have something, I must reveal
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,
Some minutes die out by holding your hand, some in embrance tight hold and some in endarment
Tears rolled by looking at the eyes I dont know so well, in the fearfull securence.
Still my feelings growing deeper and whatever i try no matter,
No sin, No crime I commit nor i didnt forgot the reality
Love is the only thing I render or I receive,
Right into your hands when i belong
Though in my heart only you seems to be matterd,
The sense may not reach and apprehend,
But the love was two though, and Now I alone.
I know you will never love me,
Although i have to confess it
Every single golden minute, I spend with you will not even vanish on my death bed,

Never or Forever ?

Time will run out soon, I know atlast i will be left as loon,
But i am sure that you will get to know, No matter where ever you go
It might takes for you forever to see, what i have for you in me
I know that my love is devine, even thought you might not willing to be mine,

Because right now

You are the first thought i have when dawn rises
You are the last thought i have when i close my eyes
I know you will fade away, but i cant see my love towards you decay,

I can only say

I love you and i always will, even you dont love me back still,
I will near to you around, when trobules in your life let you down,

I wish i could say

Take me in you arms, dont ever leave me to the relam,

Infinite Pain

Still trapped, as my heart so caught
I want to give up, but deep inside me is your tought
So many feelings rushing around inside me
Your percious silence, I love most thee
The love to the depth you showed made me so wee
No matter how defeated my soul may feel,
I cant end this, and I see no way to heal,

Friends forever

Many clouds have passed by
Still I am under the same sky,
Yet you came as a stranger,
Quickly as minutes turn into hours
And days turn into weeks,
Words became sentences,
and non-stop conversations,
True freinds are hard to find
As a needle get in a haystack
Now I have one and I will be,
When You laugh
And when you cry
I would be with you,
Even my head bowed in sorrow
Now I know
I have a friend to confide
we have a trust very rare
That confirms we will be
Friends forever!

Who AM I

A mother strife to give her child a life
A lover crave to give the love to his belonging
A father fight for to save his family
A son strife for make his father dream alive
A daughter keeps her mother name along the way
A Friend stand by you in diffculites

I wanna be LOVED

I stand alone in the cold midnight rain
Pain saturate in the blood run throuh my vein
Emotions sprint through my mind as a spinning weel,
It cannot be explained, but i know there is no way to heal,
Eternal feelings abudanced comes straight from heart
I am so scared, as i am slowlly falling apart
Everyday that goes by, feels longer than before
By knowing the fact that it cant be the same anymore
Once you came into my life, and let it for a while glow
As days passed you caused only pain, by your promises blow
I thought our affiliation remains forever
But it turned out to be happened never
You let my heart cry again and again
For a Desire You thought to gain
Now I am teriffied to put a smile on my face
As i may get disapperaed without a trace
Remembrance of my past lead feelings twisted inside
Now i am confused to choose the lifes right side
I want my trains of thoughts about you fade away,
And find a new eposide of life to live on my way,
So dream with me these empty months of sorrow,
Held a flame in my soul to find a blissfull tomorrow
Yet I wish deep inside a beautiful flower to bloom
Light my life now in the dark, in the gloom.

To My Mom

Old enough to have a life on hold
But You will be my potter, my mold,
With adumbrating pain in your heart
Sheilding us from your wounds apart
You were working finger to bone
To give us worldst saftest home
You protected us under your wings
Dawn to dusk from the evil eye rinse
You were a woman of devoition
A mother with love as ocean
Your Caring wipe my tears
Will give me faith witout fears
When the hard times are bad
And my days drench with sad
You helped me get on track
Spirit you gave bring me back
You will be my idol of hope
Without giving up I will cope
With your guidance i will strive
For the life and to survive
I owe my life to you to repay
For the love you showed all the way
I promise I will make you proud
By the world saying it loud
I wish hunderd more years
In this world to be with you here

This is MY LIFE

I often wonder why, why
People crawl into my life and let my thoughts die
It is me who patiently climbed to success
But you were not happy for my sake I guess
Once I find my life on the dark side to cease
Knowing that you vanish without a trace
Life I have been trough has been tough
Moments and incidents I find enough
I am not only made up of flesh and bone
Words you put across lead my heart to torn
Now you are here again to condemn
On reasons you find in my life random
I realize that I havent yet live a life to this point
So dont make life over and over again disappoint
I want my life and days for my own
So please leave me and my life alone.

To my sister

The seeds of strength, you placed in me
Given me a firm grasp on endless life
The love between us is so devout so pure
Pearls of happiness we gather affirms
Life choices made might taken us apart
But you are close to every beat of my heart
My love towards you would be endless skies
Despite everyday a part of me dies
Most we gone through will stay unspoken
But I promise that our bond will never broken

Sister

You were blaze when bad adumbrate on me
You were an companion to wipe away my tears
You were my friend when all others walked out
You were backer at the times of fighiting
You were saviour when troubles encoutred.

My little sister

Here I am again,
Years have passed on by,
But the moment u bloom into my life
Anchored deep into my memories,
Two little feet, smile as so sweet,
Balck brow eyes gazing wide
Your little finger holding my hand
Gods gift is you, stays always as miracle
The moments spent together remains special

Nature divine

The night calm darkness
Droplets of dew heads the green soft bead

Trees and branches seems to be yawn

I can't hear the voices of birds

Nor see the sun-speckled shadows 

Nor the dancing butterflies

Exhausted sky but can't see much

Its beautiful, No words to explain

This is what might called Nature divine

Nature call for the Sunshine

As the sun fades into cloud, darkness falls around,
Tears overthrow from lumber, for the sprite upon the flower,
Birds creps a desprate call, for the rays to fall,
Splended shades of green, longing to beam,
Bees exculde drops of few, to see blazen orange hue,
Butterflies patience with a dream, to see blaze to stream
For the sunshine, consdering the day to be fine

Water

Water is fundemental of life,
Water is what keeps you alive,
Water can reflect your soul,
Water is what make you whole,
Water is inquest of deep,
Water is every tear of weep
Water makes never thrist again,
Water is there in every drop of rain,
Water you take your first breath
Water you floats aways the death

I wonder Why?

Beams of colors light up the grey sky
I can see the beautiful bea and birds fly
Aged leaves fall from tress up high,
Nimble branches sway, then slowly sigh
Adroable buffterfly blushes with shy
Cold breeze kiss my cheek by
Tears fallen from green grass cry
On the mud which was dry,
Voilent between arachnid die,
And it bare the food with a try,
Everything I see through my eye
But deep in me is so silent wonder why

Rainy day

The day is still in sleep,
Beams of sun grow slow, grow light,
Trees tingled and flinched with a fight,
Wind gather dancing leaves as a twister
Mourning doves wriggle out in the air
Clouds covering blue sky move to sunder,
Drops of rain to the ground surrender

Need a change

Dark to dawn, twenty four hours gone;
A new day begin,but longing for the change no turn,
Space and time is constant, around me only disappointment,
Ache inside me is real, but there are no words to reveal,
Difficulties are my choices; it is only hard to choose.
Days gone consists mistakes, but want let it be as retention,
Pain in my heart want to heal and that should happen in real
I want to believe that there will be path for relief,
Moments should filled with fantasy,and it would be eternity,
Troubles must go below, my life should be a silvery glow
I want to feel stronger, as the beautiful sunflower

Spring is here!

Spring is almost here, brings you blissfull moment of the year
Here were life start, changes happens very fast
Drying up every drop of frosty tear,now i can walk without fear,
Street are perfumed with budding bloosom, feel it, its awasome
Around me birds and blomming flowers, with abundace of colors,
Wetting my shoes muddy ground, I can see small creatures playing around,
I looked up at splended heavenly sky, i feel like flying very high.